I Need Serious Help

[Sesshomaru]

Alright, I can't stand keeping this stupid situation of mine the way it is.....i...want to be happy again....i want to become myself again.....but i feel as if thats not going to happen

To those that don't know much about me.....this could help fill you in....3 years ago, I was completely depressed right to the point that I thought about committing suicide.......well, I met this great girl that made me feel happy again.....she gave me a reason to go further on in life.....well, about a month or 2 ago, she told me that she was playing with my feelings. She still wants to be friends with me, but everytime i see her.....i just can't help but feel that she has literally "killed" everything that i am....she as well as her friends, told me that she liked me, alot.......but she didn't want to "go out" with me at all.....i figured it was because she didn't want to lose me; she has told me that i'm a great guy and that she doesn't want to lose me.......unfortunately.....I'm afraid of what i might do to myself if my situation keeps getting worse...and so far, i feel as if it won't be long before I am as I was 3 years ago.........depressed to the point of killing myself.

I really need someone to at least try and give me some advice on the whole thing. plz, any help at all, would be really appreciated right now...and for those of you who feel that any advice that you give me could send me into further depression...well, the likely hood of that happening is slim. I don't take people giving advice as a bad thing....but it makes me see exactly how some people truly are when confronted with a troubled person......so plz, I'm beggin you people to help me.