Guys I am sorry....

[Kashima]

God hacker not you too just leave this whole thing to me for a while you dont need the stress bro

[Todd]

Your right Kashima. this has gone on long enough. Ian should just make his decision and then the thread should be closed. We've all done enough convincing. And if Ian doesn't make the right choice then too bad. It will be his biggest mistake, and his last.


In case you make the wrong choice, Goodbye Ian. You were a good friend...

(By the way, this post is meant to be calm)

[Anjiru]

masterofchaos, well, i knwo what i say is probably completely meaningless to you+you probably wont even take it into consideration+this thread is pretty well ended, but as a last plead, here i go, this is a true story about a guy my brother knew who was going through a very difficult time in his life, he felt as if his entire family hated him, he didnt have to many friends, he had a rough time at school, his father constantly abused him (mentally)....i mean this kid was pretty well completely on his own, or so he thought, he felt completely unloved all of his life, about 8months ago his mother came home only to find him hanging in the garage by his neck, his entire family was devistated, his friends, devistated, it was a reallly hard time on my brother, even though he didnt even know the kid taht well, but his father , the man who was a good contributer to his death, still loved him deep down, he too was devistated by the death of his son..another story, my best friend just came to my school this year, she left her other school not because she moved, because literally EVERYONE in her grade hated her, and bullied her, liek the things she had described to me are things that are soo unbeleivably inhumane, i mean everyday her mother literally had to pick her up out of her bed and put her in the car and lock the doors so she wouldnt get out, and when seh would get to school she would just wlak off school property and make her way home, thats how bad things were at school for her, she did anything and everything she could to avoid going to school because these kids were so terrible to her, infact one time she was doing a presentation and the kdis were saying such terrible things about her during it, she ran into the bathroom, she was so overwhelmed she blacked out+her teacher found her passed out in a stall, her grades went from being straight a's to failing, and not to mention throughout this terrible time in her life the only person she could depemnd on was her mother, and her one and only friend at the time, her father did absolutely nothing, her sister just added onto the stress, she had to go to a psychietris(Sp?)..she considered suicide countless amounts of times, yet she made it through, and looking at her now she is the happiest she has ever been, somthing she never thought possible...well anyways, my point here is, it may seem to you as if things are going COMPLETELY in the wrong direction, if your parents, or your friends are putting you through whatever stress you may be going through, i can guarantee you that deep dwon they love you, and that whatever stress tehy may be causing you isnt because tehy want to hurt you, it may just be that they dont realize what they are doing to you, i mean that doesnt make it right, but still...listen, me, barely even knowing you, i to would be affected by your death, because i think it is terrrible for anyone to feel stressed to thepoint where they want to take away their own life, but going through with this is not the solution to ANY of your problems, no matter what they are, suicide is NEVER the solution, infact all it does is cause more problems, for your family, for your friends, for people like me who barely even know you, now if you dont do this for yourself, do it for us...stay alive. masterofchaos i know youve heard it before, but all i ask of you is to take into consideration what ALL of us have said, keep in mind this quote "love will see us through" keep on living masterofchaos, for the people who love you+the people you love, you CAN do it, you can get through this difficult time in your life, we beleive in you, now you have to beleive in yourself.

edit: one mroe thing, have the faith that we have for you, remmeber ALL of us will always be here for you if you ever need to talk about anything at all..ill pray for you, make a wise decision ian.

[SoundMasterLuku]

Anijru you truly make me want to cry that was typed so beautifuly its not even funny.Thank you for your say anijru.


Ok guys I went to football and blew off alot of steam and I feel great which means I could thin right.To everyone on Ragol I would like to apoligize on how I acted roughly a little over an hour ago. It was terriable of me to say but I guess If u let things build up inside it only goes wrong..Im truly sry for swearing but I guess I was angry, for once truly angry and I wasnt thinking right. Im sry that it came out like that especialy in a situation such as this.

Ian you've been my friend for waht seems a life time thoguh it was only since 6th grade.Hey I was contemplating calling your house and telling your mom so many times even though it would have made it worse at first because I care about you.You are a good friend of mine,I do care about you,and as your friend I guess I should support you and the descions u make, even if I dont like them...but I guess thats just part of being a friend....A bid you the greatest of farewells ian and I wish I could have just hung out with you more,made some more memories before you untimingly end your life.I will miss you ian.....farewell

Just so u kno dear friend,a piece of me will always be with you, wherever you travel.In this life or the next....


P.S.dont worry ian I wont say anything to your mom anymore.Even though Id hate to see someone as nice as her cry.

Members of ragol If ian does do so as he desiers I will let you know....

[masterofchaos]

Anijru you truly make me want to cry that was typed so beautifuly its not even funny.Thank you for your say anijru.


Ok guys I went to football and blew off alot of steam and I feel great which means I could thin right.To everyone on Ragol I would like to apoligize on how I acted roughly a little over an hour ago. It was terriable of me to say but I guess If u let things build up inside it only goes wrong..Im truly sry for swearing but I guess I was angry, for once truly angry and I wasnt thinking right. Im sry that it came out like that especialy in a situation such as this.

Ian you've been my friend for waht seems a life time thoguh it was only since 6th grade.Hey I was contemplating calling your house and telling your mom so many times even though it would have made it worse at first because I care about you.You are a good friend of mine,I do care about you,and as your friend I guess I should support you and the descions u make, even if I dont like them...but I guess thats just part of being a friend....A bid you the greatest of farewells ian and I wish I could have just hung out with you more,made some more memories before you untimingly end your life.I will miss you ian.....farewell

Just so u kno dear friend,a piece of me will always be with you, wherever you travel.In this life or the next....


P.S.dont worry ian I wont say anything to your mom anymore.Even though Id hate to see someone as nice as her cry.

Members of ragol If ian does do so as he desiers I will let you know....

Reading all these posts espacially the las two have made me cry I am so stupid I just need to talk to someone.

[Anjiru]

ian were all here for you, if you PM any of us im sure anyone would be more then willing to help you out

[Kashima]

Now more than ever you should realize how deeply we all care for you ian. Im very tired after todays events i have no more long eloquent speeches left but please do the right thing for us

[Poo Fly]

Yes, we all do care for you, now please no more thoughts of suicide, and remember things will get better.

[whiteninja]

I just need to talk to someone.

Why do you think we're here? I, however, am leaving Sunday morning for Boy Scout camp, then returning home for a day before leaving for London on vacation. So I won't be able to talk to you, sorry.

Besides, if I found out that you did kill yourself in the day I was home, that'd be a real damper on my vacation, and you wouldn't want that, would you?

[Shadamoo]

Hey man. We havent really talked much or anything, but, as many people have said, Ragol is here for you. We dont want to lose you to this, you;re strong enough to pull through.
How have you hurt people's lives? I really hurt peoples feelings, so badly I get depressed. I hurt many peoples at once with one careless mistake. But I havent killed myself, have I? And trust me, I am a weak hearted, weak-souled person.
So just hold on and be strong. And dont make us cry!

I support you staying alive. It must count for something, right?