I Need Serious Help

[Sesshomaru]

Alright, I can't stand keeping this stupid situation of mine the way it is.....i...want to be happy again....i want to become myself again.....but i feel as if thats not going to happen

To those that don't know much about me.....this could help fill you in....3 years ago, I was completely depressed right to the point that I thought about committing suicide.......well, I met this great girl that made me feel happy again.....she gave me a reason to go further on in life.....well, about a month or 2 ago, she told me that she was playing with my feelings. She still wants to be friends with me, but everytime i see her.....i just can't help but feel that she has literally "killed" everything that i am....she as well as her friends, told me that she liked me, alot.......but she didn't want to "go out" with me at all.....i figured it was because she didn't want to lose me; she has told me that i'm a great guy and that she doesn't want to lose me.......unfortunately.....I'm afraid of what i might do to myself if my situation keeps getting worse...and so far, i feel as if it won't be long before I am as I was 3 years ago.........depressed to the point of killing myself.

I really need someone to at least try and give me some advice on the whole thing. plz, any help at all, would be really appreciated right now...and for those of you who feel that any advice that you give me could send me into further depression...well, the likely hood of that happening is slim. I don't take people giving advice as a bad thing....but it makes me see exactly how some people truly are when confronted with a troubled person......so plz, I'm beggin you people to help me.

[~Buddah~]

calm down smoke some herb (even if you havent b-4 find smoke it it'll calm u DOWN WAY DOWN) take a few deep breaths turn to someone real close and spend time with them someone who makes you laugh and keep smokeing talk to any one you you can sleep for a few days stright relax be lazey and things will be comeing back together and remember that chick caint make you commint suiside its your mind stop thinking about her and calm down

[Diesel]

put some angry music like limp bizkit/slipknot type stuff and get dead angry. with everything. punch the crap out of something (walls/people/punchbag etc) rip up some posters throw some stuff about and really knacker urself out. and the end of it ull cry. ull cry quite a bit. but then ull realise u dont need the bitch who's fucked with ur feelings. no1 needs that. and then, ull feel refreshed.

after that try something other than pso. i.e. outside. go out on the town with some mates. dress urself up for a nite and get a different girl. be a man whore for a bit, no1 gives two fucks, and u shouldnt care about what they think anyway. crash some parties with ur mates, have some beer, have some ladies etc and then ull realise that life is good and there is no point in taking any relationship that seriously until ur at least 25.

Thank you, and Good nite.

[masterofchaos]

I know how you feel I had the exact same thing happen to me sesshoumaru,all I can sayis that deal with it I know you cant forget but just try not to think about it we dont need another sucidel person on our hands. I am sorry because I am the one who did this to you.

[Judgment]

I was like that a few years ago. Find something to fight for. At least one thing that you would be willing to do anything for. Could be your future, a special person, or a certain dream ANYTHING. Thats how i got trough it

[Sesshomaru]

I know how you feel I had the exact same thing happen to me sesshoumaru,all I can sayis that deal with it I know you cant forget but just try not to think about it we dont need another sucidel person on our hands. I am sorry because I am the one who did this to you.

MOC you weren't the one that did this to me.......as of yet, suicide is far from me.......for one thing....violence isnt something i feel is the right thing to do....I don't like hitting things, I don't like hurting people.
Diesel.....I just fell in love with the wrong person at the wrong time.....she made me feel happy again, and then took my happiness away......as of this point, I've been talking almost everyday with one of my friends about the whole thing, and she keeps telling me that things will eventually get better for me....I'm not exactly sure when that'll happen......lol....I've always had fun helping people..but now I see that after awhile of just thinking about everything that keeps happening to me....I'm actually the one that would need the help of everyone else.............lol....well, seeing what everyone has written here..has lifted my spirits alittle and for the first time in the past month.....i actually smiled about something......lol.....doesn't seem like much does it......but for me, its a start.

[jarl]

if you ever need a laugh, just pm me i have a feew funnys that should keep you entertained (ish )

[Sesshomaru]

I'll keep that in mind Jarl...thnxs

[Karasu Murder]

That she did that to you....is seriously screwed up...People who play with other's feelings are lower than dirt to me, I don't see what benefit it can give anyone...

Anyways. Perhaps try spending some time with friends, doing things you enjoy (possibly outside of playing PSO). Your friend is right, as things do tend to get better after a great many trials, so keeping that in mind *might* help with morale. I'm not really sure of what else I can say. Perhaps try and delve into something new. A new hobby or interest can sometimes help (believe me lol). I personally don't think that girl is worth being friends with, if she would play with your feelings like that...

[God-IX]

Hmm, I will have to agree with Karasu...

While my advice on this topic may not be well, cause I am not one to give advice well....but it is:

This chick you met, I am assuming is about your age, says that she was playing with your feelings? That is wrong...I bet, that she just broke up with you because her friends don't like you, and she told you this just because her friends told her to tell you that.

I think whilst you were dateing, she did care for you, but now, her friends have found someone that they think is better, and they told her to break up with you.....

I have NO clue whether this is the real reason or not, but this is the case among a lot of teenagers....

I don't know if this cheered you up at all, but that is probably the case, given I have no clue about her, if I am completely wrong, just ignore me...

But always remember, there are always more.