I cant help but think it is my fault

[Teh EkwEE]

<.< well not to make Jay feel bad, but there was always a chance he could have gone and he would not have gotten hit, that's the Butterfly Effect at work for ya'. But there's nothing you can do now, the past is the past. Get off the computer, (like now) and go to room and cry like a bitch for several days, that usually makes things a little better. I did it when my cat died.